Well I did it, I ran a 2nd 5K yesterday with a mediocre time of 44:44. I started the race with my friends daughter Tasha and she finished in 32 minutes, and she's 8. So after that crushing blow to my ego, I was happy with how I did, I stopped to walk for 3 minutes at mile 2 and then picked it back up.
I am glad I did it and will continue to find a local race to run every month. I signed up for a 1/2 marathon in November. My intent is to be able to do that.
If you would have told me a year ago I would be running races at this time next year, I would have laughed at you. But I have found some solace on my treadmill and on the road when I run, it's giving me a little peace of mind. But I do feel like my body is a bit askew. I'm sure that running more will make that pass, I am still a big girl, my joints and muscles are not used to this kind of pounding constantly, but the lighter I get the less the pain (I am hoping).
The best part of the race yesterday was meeting Ken and Austin from this last season of Biggest Loser. They look amazing and their attitudes and stories about how they feel on the inside were very inspiring.
I get that voice in my head that says, well you did the race, you proved you can do it, you don't have to do it anymore. And I guess because I'm still not in love with running that I am fighting that and making myself run anyway.
So again, to all of you who have blazed the trail of fitness and health in front of me, thank you. You are making this health, weight loss, and self-confidence possible.