Now stay with me, because we are living in absolute utter chaos and insanity. I'm watching people in complete fear, some justified, some not. I'm watching people grow to hate each other over diversity of opinion over masks. I'm watching people held hostage, their lives, careers, educations, relationships taken from them. I'm hearing and reading noise, that's all it is now is noise. There are very few media outlets that are now producing facts, they're producing propaganda and fodder. I started to do a lot of questioning, which lead to a lot of research about this Covid - 19 dilemma. I am not at risk, neither are my kids or husband, therefore, I have tapped out of the "safer at home" situation. If you or your family are at risk, I'm sorry, and take whatever precautions you're comfortable to protect yourself. In the last few weeks, I have traveled to another state, eaten at a restaurant, had people over for dinner, gone to friends house for dinner, and had some play dates, hugged my friends (the ones that want to be hugged, I respect the wishes and requirements of everyone), I have laughed, and gone back to enjoying life. Thank GOODNESS.
I realize that this is going to light some peoples ass on fire, that I'm not listening to the relentless media telling me to be fearful, and the brimstone of virus is going to crawl up my butt and inflame my respiratory system and send me to an early grave. But I kind of don't care. Honestly, it took me decades to get to a point, where I was comfortable, and confident enough in my judgement that your opinion, especially one I didn't ask for, carries no weight in my decision making, or my belief and decisions. I will continue to live cautiously, responsibly, and comfortably for my family. I recommend and suggest you do the same. Wherever you are in your Covid-19 journey, be comfortable, confident, and fearless. If you are still at home and you're happy, and experiencing no discomfort after 100 days of lockdown - more power to you. Please, however, respect those that are out and about and have moved on and are confident in their necessary steps to get back to life, work, education, livelihoods. You do you, and let me do me. This lockdown brought out the best and worst in people, and I'm guilty of some incredible anger and judgement, but I finally woke up. I'm not going to change any minds, and it's not my job to. My job is to parent my kids, and be a partner to my husband as we see fit. Your opinion of how we do it, is none of my business.
We are entitled to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. I'll be honest with you, after 8 weeks of "safer at home", I felt my life, liberties and all happiness were zapped from me and my kids. "The Cure was worse than the virus", and after weeks of research and consults, we started going out. Beach, hiking, walks, drives, nothing terribly offensive. For crying out loud though, I was called irresponsible, reprehensible, stupid, anti-vaxxer, idiot, moron, and the best yet an accomplice at murders. And I don't say that to get a reaction, and for you to feel bad for me. But I realized I am confident and strong enough in my beliefs, my convictions, and my faith, that those words didn't hurt me one bit, they didn't make me second guess, they didn't make me cower and change my mind to fit their fears and conformity.
The Cure was worse than the virus for me. I was not right after 2 months of what I choose to call horse manure. I want to work, I want to see my kids thrive, I want to be with my people. So when I stopped asking and expecting permission to be a responsible confident adult, I did what I wanted. A month out from those decisions, and no Covid, no doomsday, no masks, just us, living, wrapped in the armor of God, and practicing our Faith. Our Faith that is bigger than fear. Our Faith that can not live in the same house as Fear. I chose the Faith, and I chose to follow the signs I prayed for. The armor of God, protected me from the hurtful words, the judgmental Karens, and the virus.
So while I've never been a follower of the masses, I just finally had to faithfully, without hesitation follow God and the happiness returned, the life, the joy, the peace of mind. I hope you're in peace, no matter where you are in this ridiculous insanity that is our world right now.