Monday, March 26, 2012

Housewives of OC Really??????

I am behind a few weeks on this Season of the Train wrecks of Orange County, because frankly they are irritating and stupid. I am fairly sure that if I ran into a few of them on the street I would knock them right off of their stilettos, just to amuse myself.

I get reality.   In someways and on some days my life and those of most of the Real Moms in OC there is a little too much real in our reality. Besides one real crazy bitch in Laguna Niguel that is off her psychiatric medication, I have never come into contact with women who treat each other so poorly. These are middle aged, made up like bad street walkers that are crying about nose jobs, who are friends with who they are nothing more than a HOT MESS.

Vicki it is clear that you are the neediest, clingiest, and most self-centered person on the planet. I mean for crying out loud you are driving your daughter to oncology surgery whining about how YOU are going to get through this??????? REALLY???? Why would you do that? I am a mom and I would do everything in my power to make sure my kid was as comfortable as possible. Last year when my mom drove me to my oncology surgery not once did she mention herself. It's sad I really used to enjoy you on the show but your true colors of selfishness are not a portrayal of anyone that is REAL in OC. Ad your new relationship is great, but he got behind on his child support, admit it, be nice to others in that position,a nd humble yourself. If you are,going to try and play the Christian card at your convenience then you should lose the judgement and scrape that old gum Tamra off of your shoe.

Gretchen, you have some business smarts it appears. Get some real smarts and get the hell away from Tamra the mental patient. She is crazy and nothing more than a huge shit stirrer, I think she wants to skin you and wear you like last years Versace. Slade is slimy but if you're happy please explain why. I just don't get the guy at all.

Alexis, honey, the women are mean, you don't know how to be mean, just go away from them. And for Pete's sake, you cry too much over a minor surgery. Do you know how much that irritates those of us that have had to have had surgery because of cancer or other horrible things? Will you please grow a pair and throw a big pot of spaghetti on Tamra she was so rude and disgusting to you, you need to put that animal in her place.  We need more action from you and less talking, in your case talking less is much more.

Heather, you are hilarious to watch, because you cast dispersions on the other chicks with a smile on your face. Love it! "Shut it down" is my new favorite line.

Tamra, I need to know if Bravo gave you a raise for going off of your anti-psychotic medication? You are crazy, you went completely psycho over a couple of drunken high fives and tried to make your best friends boyfriend handle your boob. WHO DOES THAAT??? You are at a RESTAURANT a fondue restaurant and act like you're shocked that the are going to serve food with calories. Eating disorder much? You clearly are planning a huge Hen house fight. You are insensitive and horrible to Vicki who you claim is your best friend on earth, and then you try and throw her and Gretchen in the ring. Was that supposed to be an illegal cock fight or something. We're you sad no one drew first blood? You need psychiatric help go get some.

This season has really made me reflect on how mentally healthy I am. So to the real housewives of OC thank you for making me feel so much better about myself, and how superior I am emotionally, spiritually and maternally and I fell that way even without the drag queen makeup you all proudly display.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Breakdown to Breakthrough

I went to my last Barry's Bootcamp workout of the week on Friday.  Friday is the Full Body Workout, and it's friggin' exhausting.  But an amazing workout.  Scott Perry did a great class, and I still have a hard time keeping up, and that crazy head of mine telling me I'm the fat old lady in class no wonder I can't keep up.  I really need to beat that voice in my head, I hate it.

After driving home from the workout out I was speeding along the freeway crying.  I feel sometimes like I just SUCK at working out.  I get panicked when I'm running too fast and can't catch my breath and I stop.  I don't like to work that hard, I guess.

I was pondering why I get so wigged out when running or working out and right before I kick it into a super high gear I start to panic and just stop.  What is that?  Who does that?

I was thinking I just like running and trotting along not breathing super hard, not pushing super hard, able to finish with a smile on my face, not wincing in pain and sweat.  It really is bullshit.

Every time I finish a workout I'm excited, and happy that I finished, and these boot camps have really shown me what I can and can not do, and the areas I need to work harder.   It's the working HARDER that pisses me off.  I like working out, I don't love it, I do it because its good for me and it will help me stay healthy so I'm here to take care of my kids.  I started working out a year ago exactly, and have lost 85 lbs, and this time last year I couldn't run five feet, and now I can run five miles regularly.

I want the working out to be fun, the rest of my life is hard, my marriage is hard, autism is hard and sucky, and my body after cancer is hard to get over, the economy is hard, being a mom is hard.  For the love of Pete, when is shit going to start being fun and or easy?

So I have no other choice but to make all this hard work and races, and boot camps and mileage fun because the rest of my life doesn't look like it's going to change, and I'm not saying that the rest of my life is bad in any way shape or form, my life is good, but there are so many things that are hard about it, I am looking for something that is easy and fun.

This is why I am doing it, I need to be here for these smiles
So a breakthrough from boot camp.  So I will make it fun from now on, these workouts are mine, they don't belong to anyone else, they are mine, the more I do the harder I work the stronger I get, in my body, in my mind and in my spirit.


Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Barry's Bootcamp - Week 2

The nightmare bronchitis seems to be fading away, and I sort of have my wind back.  I am in the 2nd week of the challenge at Barry's Bootcamp.  So far I'm 3lbs down, and my endurance in the class is getting better.  I am sometimes not thrilled with my performance, but being that I am a work in progress, I am seeking to just get better than I am not be the best!  I am running and using Barry's Bootcamp as my Cross Training for the half marathon!

I liked our instructor Kathryn today,  you have got to love an instructor that says "It's going to hurt, It's going to suck, and you're gonna hate me."  I love when they tell the truth!  But she was good the workout was very difficult but not to the point where I felt like a 90 year old in a room of 20 year olds.

I am enjoying this challenge, it is preparing me for the Irvine Lake Spring Break Mud Run at the end of this month and I'm 60 days away from the OC Half Marathon.  I don't know how I'm going to be ready, but I will be ready, come hell or high water!

Thank you Barry for giving me a boost of confidence to kick myself up a notch.