Sunday, October 30, 2011

90 days away

Well it's official my first 1/2 marathon is 90 days away.  My plan is to run the Disney Tinkerbell 1/2 marathon on January 29, 2011.  So sort of ass backwards, it's a new years resolution, but I have to start it before the end of the year.  I've been running officially since March of this year, and have run 5 5K's and just signed up for my first 10K on Thanksgiving morning.

I think when I looked at the calendar and realized that I'm now officially 3 months away I started feeling anxiety in my heart and breathing and those "I can't" voices started chattering in the back of my head.  But they can kiss my ass.  This is the longest that I have ever stuck to any fitness program in my life.  For crying out loud, I have to run.  I don't have a choice, it keeps me sane.  Even if I don't want to run races, I better not stop running.  The running got me off anti-depressants, cleared the fog of life off my brain, allowed me to focus on something else than Autism, therapies, speech, diets, and the reality of that for short spurts of time a few times a week.    Those "I can't" voices, are not beating me this time.  This I do for me, I have to do this so I that I can do for my kids.  I'm not fooling anyone, I'm not a crazy good athlete, I'm not a "real" runner.  It helps me, I need to do it, like diabetics need to take insulin, I need to run.  It's good for me, I need to do it, it's like a medicine for me, and that is why I do it.

I will be ready for this half marathon, and I will make it my race, and I will run it at my pace.  I don't have to win, I just have to do it.

I follow bloggers, and websites for weightloss and fitness and that has been such a blessing to me and my journey of my health.  This year I have lost 80 lbs (so far), gained some confidence, been able to finish races, gained a ton of respect for running moms, and runners in general.  Really have learned patience that I have been able to carry through to my kids, friends and family.  This running that I'm not crazy about is making me a better person, better wife, better mommy, better everything.   So like it or not, I'm continuing this journey because now that I have a slight grip on my physical health, I don't want to let it go.

So Tinkerbell and I have a date in January, and I will keep you posted on how the training is going.


Rebecca

5 comments:

  1. YAY!!! You can do it, if I can ANYONE can, and you're one strong mama, so I KNOW you can do it!!

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  2. 80 pounds is amazing! I know you're going to kick butt at this 1/2 marathon! Disney would be such an amazing place to do it.

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  3. I dont run, but I definitely get what you mean about it keeping you sane. I love walking to get out. Sometimes it is my way of thinking about things, and other times its my way of relaxing. I have children with special need, one with autism...so I know what you mean about trying to do something other than therapy and thinking about their needs. I have been stressed lately, and your post has reminded me that instead of feeding my stress with crappy food...I can feel better by getting out and exercising. Thank you for that motivation! Congratulations to you on losing 80lbs...that is so awesome! Good luck on your 10K Thanksgiving day!

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  4. Very inspirational post. My runs and walks are some of the only times that I can turn everything else off. Great job on completing all the 5ks, best of luck on your 10k and your Disney half marathon. Congrats on losing 80lbs in one year!!

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  5. Just found your blog, but holy crap you are awesome! Not only have you had an 80(!!) pound loss, but you are also training for a 1/2 marathon. You ARE a real runner, own it!!!

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