Somedays my list of things to be grateful for is endless, somedays my list of things to bitch about seems longer than endless. But I am really working on being and trying to stay positive so as I drove into work this morning I was thinking about all the things that I have to be grateful and thankful for and it put a huge smile on my face.
My kids - Autism made this a different mommyhood than I expected but it's an amazing heartwarming love of these two little boys that warms my heart and makes me move forward even when I don't want to. Every thing they do is a joy to me. ( I have to remember this the next time there is a tantrum going on at 3am) But everypart about being a mom to these 2 is the greatest gift God could have given me.
My family - My husband, my parents, my in-laws, my brother, my kids for all that they help me do and over the last year while I was getting surgeries and kicking cancers ass. I couldn't have done it without your love and care and I know that from the bottom of my soul.
My friends - seen and unseen. The words and help that have come from you all this past year has been what has carried me through some dark days and for all of you I am thankful.
Cancer - Believe it or not this time last year as I was laid up after a double mastectomy and hysterectomy I was feeling so ridiculously sorry for myself, and now I am thankful that it gave me the much needed ass kicking to get me into my health and taking care of myself. My body needs to be maintained so I can be around as long as possible for these kiddos.
Church - The closeless and reliablity I have found on God this year has been something I always knew was there but never leaned on it like I have this year and I am thankful its there.
My job - I'm never going to get rich working here, but I am fortunate that my boss allows me to work 5am - 10am to accomodate our schedule so my kids are with my husband or myself and our school and therapy schedules. It takes a bit of the pressure off my husband and allows us to have our head just a little above water.
My home - I am thankful and love the home we built together, it is a place where there is love, comfort, and laughter, the place our kids were born and being raised.
The Road - So thankful that I have discovered (by lots of encouragement) running, who knew that something I thought was so torturous would bring me so much relief. With all the marbles and noise banging around in my head most of the time it really has brought me a clarity and strength I didn't know I was capable of.
My life - The good the bad and the ugly. Everything in it today I am thankful for even the crazy struggles that we go through on a daily basis makes me the woman I am today (good, bad, and ugly).
So on this final day of Lent and going 40 days with no chips and 40 days of exercise I am incredibly thankful for all of the good in my life even on the days that I can find no good in it - I can't find it someday because I forget to look because it is always there.